New beginnings, new endings.

I had just greeted my friend and wished her happy birthday when an sms delivered news of my aunt's passing.

I felt such a strange irony that I could commemorate 2 opposite things at the same time. So odd. People come, people go. And life around really went on, without pausing. But it was alright, because others have their life to live, to make use of. They will have their own time to be stopped and be reminded of life.

I sat on the bus to school and as the Olympic games played on TV Mobile, I heard the glorious national anthem of the winning swimmer play in the whole stadium for the world to hear. People fight so hard in their lives to win that medal, that coveted prize, make their entire nation proud to be a citizen. I saw that little tear of accomplishment in their eyes. I felt mine, almost, for them, and perhaps imagined if I did something like that for once. All that hard work paid off. All the while, thinking if my aunt lived a life close to what she had wanted it to be.

So I attended my first wake from my paternal family... caused by old age. And it was strangely odd, strangely peaceful, strangely imminent that this is the start of more wakes and such to come. Not that I want to be particularly negative about things, but it all comes with age and I have to accept that. I don't like gloominess, but hey, life and death comes a-knocking whether people like it or not. Just as how people of a certain age group start attending more weddings, and the first wedding is the start of many more to come, before they get bored and reluctant of attending any more.

Ok, with all bad things, there are always good news. Such is the cycle of life.

In this year, SO FAR, there are already:

1. 1 new birth - my new nephew

2. 2 up and coming kids next year!! Another aunt has gotten pregnant with twins!! COOL!

3. 1 cousin is getting married this year

4. Another cousin couple found new jobs in a new country

5. Of course, and i've found love. =) or love has found me.

Started reading Tuesdays with Morrie lately, and it's about life and death too. Hence feeling more introspective nowadays. Not to mention having a sociology module this semester further encouraged it. 

But many things around us forces us to put some things aside, and I wonder, if and when i'm going to leave some thoughts behind...