Very tiring. I wish my body is made to last longer at times... then can do more than a million things in my life time. hahas...
Today someone brought up the feeling of jadedness. Which in other words mean that one becomes less excited about things, less interested in what's going on around them, probably needs someone to push them along instead of taking the spontaneous initiative to jump into something lively and fun cos its 'boring' or dull to them at first or second notice.
A quick check on dictionary:
jaded |ˈjādid|adjectivetired, bored, or lacking enthusiasm, typically after having had too much of something : meals to tempt the most jaded appetites.
Either way, life is probably less interesting once this deadly virus against fun sets into your inner spirit.
I wondered if it also meant that you're less able to cry if things happen to you. I was on the train home when I saw this toddler in his pram crying for his mummy even though his helpless papa was standing right there with him. He didn't want his daddy. (Poor dad).
[I suddenly thought about why toddlers don't want their fathers but only their mothers instead. Maybe... that's for another day.]
Point is, babies will cry for anything and everything they want and need. I'm curious about how people end up not crying anymore as they grow older? We use speech. yeah, ok. We talk our way into getting things, finding things, buying things... or people. That's adults. It was only recently that I realised a lot people, I mean, adults, were crying on the inside over almost all the things that have hurt them. Which can be almost anything that's around them. We can be so fragile to hurt. People can look like they're handling it well, but sometimes they don't know they're crying inside themselves. The ability to talk seem to give us 'word-insurance', whether we lie about it or not.
Jadedness... we harden our hearts to not cry. To tell/not tell people what we're going through. I'm not asking people to go around crying of course. But there has to be an outlet to let their needs be met... enough to not be jaded by it... and then taken for granted.How to soften jadedness? So at least you'll have a lighter heart for the rest of your life to enjoy. I want a new heart to all the things I take on, so each time I see/do/experience something even the familiar, I can have a new sense of enjoyment. A new story for each moment. [ I'm not sure about hurt though.]
Jadedness... is something too costly to have.
Either way, life is probably less interesting once this deadly virus against fun sets into your inner spirit.
I wondered if it also meant that you're less able to cry if things happen to you. I was on the train home when I saw this toddler in his pram crying for his mummy even though his helpless papa was standing right there with him. He didn't want his daddy. (Poor dad).
[I suddenly thought about why toddlers don't want their fathers but only their mothers instead. Maybe... that's for another day.]
Point is, babies will cry for anything and everything they want and need. I'm curious about how people end up not crying anymore as they grow older? We use speech. yeah, ok. We talk our way into getting things, finding things, buying things... or people. That's adults. It was only recently that I realised a lot people, I mean, adults, were crying on the inside over almost all the things that have hurt them. Which can be almost anything that's around them. We can be so fragile to hurt. People can look like they're handling it well, but sometimes they don't know they're crying inside themselves. The ability to talk seem to give us 'word-insurance', whether we lie about it or not.
Jadedness... we harden our hearts to not cry. To tell/not tell people what we're going through. I'm not asking people to go around crying of course. But there has to be an outlet to let their needs be met... enough to not be jaded by it... and then taken for granted.How to soften jadedness? So at least you'll have a lighter heart for the rest of your life to enjoy. I want a new heart to all the things I take on, so each time I see/do/experience something even the familiar, I can have a new sense of enjoyment. A new story for each moment. [ I'm not sure about hurt though.]
Jadedness... is something too costly to have.
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