Do I find fulfilment in film?
Been speaking with some people in school, especially since its the time of the season when we have to really decide and choose what path we want to walk down hence forth, and start planning.
I really wanna try new things, see the world and life (that does not necessarily mean I have to travel abroad), and be with people that can spark joy and transformation.
All that, to bring me to my fulfilment.
And though I look around and see many people who are exceptional and brilliant in film school and the industry in general, I feel like I pale in comparison. But I shamelessly, actually, really, still want to do film, be it in the hard-pressed industry or not. It doesn't really matter that much to me at this point. I need experience. (Sometimes I need someone to tell me which is the best way to go then I don't have to think so much. but thinking is good. :) )
I just worry I can't make money with it. I need to live and eat and still be happy, right? Money is becoming more an issue to me than how it was last time. Oh no, I'm becoming more materialistic and superficial and realistic... =p Honestly, I didn't think about it much until... it hits you (through the means of people's nagging), cos working without decent pay used to be ok for me... so slap me thoughts.
ok, i'm rambling. Just need to make a mark of it in my historical blog for now. Will come back to this topic again later.
Goodnight!
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