Closure: 20 Dec 2007

clo·sure
n.
1. The act of closing or the state of being closed: closure of an incision.
2. Something that closes or shuts.
3. A bringing to an end; a conclusion: finally brought the project to closure.
4. See cloture.
5. The property of being mathematically closed.
tr.v. clo·sured, clo·sur·ing, clo·sures
To cloture (a debate).

Someone had the wisdom to invent this word.

There's finally some peace in mind after 8 months of confusion and feeling awful.
Or am I a person who lets circumstances affect her? I don't want to be that too much.
Sometimes I feel like a step or two behind some people. Or I don't know if I'm ahead.
But what I know is, this year has gotta have closure, and 2008 is time for a new beginning.

I remembered at the beginning of this year, my 3 words were:

1. Mercy

2. Direction

3. Refinement

~

How? In summary:

Mercy- no, I havent been the best girl I can be. and I saw a lot of mercy coming my way. (I'd like to couple this with Grace, cos i feel it comes together most times. ) sigh. but He's healed me when I wasn't well, given me strength to carry on when I almost thought impossible, allowed me to be near when I wasn't deserving, given me opportunities when I thought I couldn't, held onto me when I was far...

Direction - sth I often ask for. Have I gotten it? maybe. maybe a little bit more. but it's good enough for this year. =) (*little by little everyday, little by little every way...*)

direction in film/studies, personal self, cell (we've multiplied too!), friendships and family. yes. And especially in family I see the changes. and of course, with God. I wanna thank the people He's put around me, and especially those who dare to honestly tell me in the face/msn/phone/sms about things that matter. I respect you, people. salut.

Oh! not to mention I turned 21 this year! =)

Refinement - This is a tricky one. practically, you wouldn't know until it's over right? I'm not sure if it's over, but i shall save this for another time. but you can say there's a twig of refinement in faith. there's was a bump and a dent, and it has brought me full circle. i think. For now, I want to thank especially Joanne for lending me her books, of which I've really read them well, that they even look 'well-read'. They've helped me a lot. Thank you for your friendship.

Refinement also in the sense that, for the people who have helped me or not through changes and difficult moments, whether you know it or not. Thank you. I don't know if this year has been the best for me. I guess I've had the best and worst times (ok, maybe not that bad, but enough to cherish my best times). At least I can move forward.