Toss and Turn

Yesterday's cell was really a wonderful time of sharing. It was the most unusual cell we had and the ironic thing is that, we had taiwanese delegates who came to visit to learn how to run a cell! I hope they leave with something good. hee. God was here. (imagine a graffitti on my living room wall.. haha)

Well, I couldn't sleep last night.
Was just reflecting on what all of us shared at cell.

You know, our lives really are so deep, vast, eventful, complex, comprehensive, compact, profound, and full of many many things. And yet, if no one ever asked about our lives, would we still share all the beautiful things that has ever happened to us? Or our hurts, struggles and pains that show of God's glory that He has built into us through the moulding? Or do we just go numb and let all the things that ever went through your minds, heart, soul, experiences, go past in a whir or fly in the wind, unnoticed and unknown, without ever touching another life in our lifetime?

How precious information is! Information about how to live, how to love, how to help, how God is, how we are, how we will be, or was... etc etc. I'm so glad we all shared that little bit of ourselves, I've learnt more from our sharings. Our memories of these things are way better than any 400GB hard disk you can ever find. Once shared, our lives are also stored in other people's 'hard disks' and they serve to touch and change their lives in big ways and small. Giving God all the glory. It will not be in vain.

Had a really nice talk with my bestfriend and I realised that though we talked for 2hrs nonstop, we could never ever cover everything in our lives. Never. It's just impossible. There's still so much and too much that I wanted to say and hear but I couldn't, especially not in that short span of time. How do we translate all these things? Who do we tell such things to? Some things just don't do justice in words (or blogs), and some things remain privvy between you and God.
God will always be the bestest of all best friends.

I was so in love with God that I couldn't sleep and so I started praying and singing to God in bed. My dad heard me when he woke up at 4am...paiseh.. he was probably sleepily annoyed that I was feeling high at such odd hours. hahaha...

ok I shall end here. feel indignified that I haven't finished all that I wanted to remember in blogs, but i shall just let it go.


"Come what may, Come what may, I will love you, until my dying day..."